rescinding love

[e_liberation]

i miss the piggy-backing of hearts
the weightless smiles and future possibilities twinkling in his eyes

the clouds have moved in
my mind heavy with contraband
held back from the edges of my silky smooth lips - it's just so unladylike

instead i smuggle every ounce of relief - slowly it becomes a heaping pile inside of me
this rocky terrain, the scavenger hunt
has to.
stop

my heart has tired of searching
tired from the push and pull
the fair-weather love
the once open arms
the now barren hope
every refusal
all of the questions


my darling
i have been hollowed

and i do not desire
any such love that comes without
the wildest moxie